One Day at a Time: July 2010

Friday, July 23, 2010

I Love Getting Mail!

It makes me so happy... apparently. DH snapped this pic one day that we had so much mail, the mailman left it all in a box. It was AWESOME!

I just hadn't realized how happy I was. That, ladies and gents, is a honest to goodness smile right there. I even look pretty young and slim in this pic huh? Lovin' it!

What makes you honestly smile?

{and perhaps giggle, like I did shortly after this picture was taken... or squeal... like I had shortly before it was taken... lol}

Sunday, July 18, 2010

Today was bad. I don't want to go into too much detail because I don't air dirty laundry... but let's just say I am sick of having to keep it all together for everyone else. Lately all I want to do is curl up in a ball and cry but I can't. I have to be calm, carry on, stay strong so everyone else can keep going. I give and give and help everyone around me but I don't get any help in return. I run myself raged and don't get a break.

These last few days I have been tired, shaking, dizzy and weak. I have absolutely no idea why either. My diet hasn't changed. I'm not working out more than normal. My blood pressure is actually perfect. There is always that .01% chance that I got pregnant, but I really don't think that is the cause. I am supposed to remove my ring this week anyways so I'll be able to rule that out in a couple days. I just don't know. I see the Dr for my surgery follow up on the 6th so I'll mention it... or go in sooner if it continues or gets worse. Maybe I'm just at the end of my rope and I'm exhausted. Either way, I can't begin antidepressants with me shaking like this. They tend to make me antsy and panicky so I need to begin them when I am calm and collected. Like that will be any time soon though... ARG!

Can someone come over and help me finish unpacking, put away the dishes that are clean but still in the sink and dryer, put away my mound of clean clothes (see a trend here?), and soothe a screaming baby while I just sit and breathe a little? Then maybe could you take me out and we'll go shopping or something? I am so lonely and stressed out up here in Alaska all alone. I am literally cooped up in the house all day because DH needs the car for work. I am going stir crazy!

Thursday, July 15, 2010

Friday Fun!

It's time for Friday Fun! Please hop on over to my dear host(esse)s' blogs and give them some love!

If you are new here, Welcome! I'm Jeannette!

At One Day At a Time you will find my journey to a happier, healthier me. I am on the road to shedding that harmful baggage that has been thrown at me over the years and I chose to hold on to. Piece by piece I am literally throwing (or donating) it all away. I have been seeing a counselor for a few months now and have donated or thrown out over 50lbs of stuff from my past that was sitting in the house. I got a new hair cut and color and am feeling great! Now I just need to keep up this good work I've been doing in my emotional life. You'll find honest and open posts here about my day to day emotional roller coaster. I also post about my past as I learn to put it behind me.

I am who I am because of my past, but I will be who I am becoming because of the decisions I make today!

Some of my most meaningful posts are:

If you are an old friend, welcome back love! I am so glad to see you again.

PS: I'm having a party soon on my weight loss blog to commemorate being under 200lbs! It will likely be in August and I'll be hosting giveaways during it. Feel free to grab my party button and help me spread the news.

Tuesday, July 13, 2010

P!nk - Glitter In the Air

I wouldn't say I'm a fan of P!nk, but this song really speaks to my heart. I think many women (and men) can relate to it. Not to mention this performance was amazing! It was truly heartfelt, which personally I don't think we see much of anymore.

"Glitter In The Air"

Have you ever fed a lover with just your hands?
Closed your eyes and trusted, just trusted?
Have you ever thrown a fist full of glitter in the air?
Have you ever looked fear in the face and said, "I just don't care"?

It's only half past the point of no return
The tip of the iceberg
The sun before the burn
The thunder before the lightning
The breath before the phrase
Have you ever felt this way?

Have you ever hated yourself for staring at the phone?
You're whole life waiting on the ring to prove you're not alone
Have you ever been touched so gently you had to cry?
Have you ever invited a stranger to come inside?

It's only half past the point of oblivion
The hourglass on the table
The walk before the run
The breath before the kiss
And the fear before the flames
Have you ever felt this way?

La La La La La La La La

There you are, sitting in the garden
Clutching my coffee,
Calling me sugar
You called me sugar

Have you ever wished for an endless night?
Lassoed the moon and the stars and pulled that rope tight?
Have you ever held your breath and asked yourself will it ever get better than tonight?
Tonight

Saturday, July 10, 2010

Feeling a Little Down

I've been feeling a little down lately. I've been stressed about Little Bit. He's been very cranky with his teething. He also gets bored about every 15 minutes and I have to pick him up and move him to a different toy or to my lap. It's pretty hard on my back and I am still healing from my abdominal surgery. The hard thing is that I know this is normal for his age and it's something every mom deals with everyday. I also gained 5lbs in two weeks. That's been hard on me too. I knew it would happen with my surgery... but I figured I'd lose this week. I gained another pound. I checked my body fat and muscle mass. Both were bad news. I was hoping my muscle mass would be up so I could blame my weight gain on it... but nope, no luck. I am still tossing around the idea of taking medication, but my depression seems to be completely situational and not chemical. I'm not sure medication would help much. And, to tell you the truth, I can't swallow pills so I would have to crush it up every morning and put it in applesauce or yogurt. It's kinda a hassle and I tend to forget or get too busy to take daily medication. I just don't know what to do besides eating or shopping to curb my depression when it strikes. It's not like I can avoid my triggers... I have been wanting to go out to a movie lately, but that will get very expensive too.

Thursday, July 8, 2010

Friday Fun!

It's time for Friday Fun! Please hop on over to my dear host(esse)s' blogs and give them some love!

I am who I am because of my past, but I will be who I am becoming because of the decisions I make today!

Some of my most meaningful posts are:

If you are an old friend, welcome back love! I am so glad to see you again.

Friday, July 2, 2010

And I'm Done!

I finally finished my school work! I had gotten very behind in a short summer course History of Psychology (2 exams, an outline, a research paper, and 4 quizzes behind). Thankfully my professor allowed me to turn things in late but it piled up and became overwhelming. I am NOT a history person so it was very frustrating to do it all in 3 days instead of over the course of a month and a half. Anywhoodle.. I AM DONE! I just turned in my last assignments and it is over.

... now a couple more classes and I finally graduate lol. I have all the credits I need... I just need to raise my in residence GPA .01 percent... *sigh* No... they don't round up.

Also!!! Today is DH's 25th Birthday. Happy 25th Birthday Anniversary honey!!! Yesterday I planted some flowers in a couple of planters I found for 60% off at JoAnns. They are so pretty! I'll post pictures later. Here is one of LB and I having fun in the sun... we're pretty pale so hats and glasses for us!